I was losing my hair. The pills I took made my scalp patchy and pushed out gunk that rose to my skin’s surface in fatty springs. My face exploded, lips cracked and bleeding. I was doing it for beauty. I was doing it for Brucie. Over the bridge I hit traffic. Wind blew past rolled down windows. From a neighboring car, someone said a mermaid had been spotted in the water. People flowed out of their vehicles, floated to the edge of the bridge to peer below. The person in the truck beside me asked me why I wasn’t hopping out. Not like we got anything better to do, he said. Murmurs drifted down the honking drag while masses continued to crowd the side. I told him I’d already seen the mermaid. It wasn’t so exciting. And I was thinking about Brucie, all that he’d do to me once I hit land. I was supposed to avoid sunlight anyway. Whenever I went outside, which was hardly ever these days, it burned, and I imagined this is what the mermaid felt like when she was on land too long. To be singed by the elements. I told the man all this. He said, That’s a hell of a drug. Worried you might grow a tail? I wanted to tell him I already had, but I’d felt like I’d done enough oversharing for a day. I told him about Brucie instead. I said he was an engineer trying to save the world. Studies eart
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